How Did this All Happen?

How did I end up where I am now in life? Did you ever wonder about how the small decisions you make work out planning your future? When I left my hometown, or the closest thing I had to a hometown, to go into the military I had plans of being an officer. I was going to administration so I could work for the post office. Turns out that the postal designation had become a temporary assignment for no stripes, and I married an enlisted dude who had no desire to be married to an officer. I should have dumped him but didn't. I ended up with two wonderful children and that's about it. I had to loose everything I owned and go bankrupt in order to rediscover my writing and art. I'd lost it again through small decisions. I don't have the time, don't have the money to buy supplies, can't concentrate, etc. Eventually I believed my husband who told me I didn't have talent and it wasn't worth the time and effort. But it was all a decision. Now I live in a trailer park, I only work part time. I'm divorced, My car is broken. I have fibromyalgia, overactive bladder, and am sensitive to various foods (like High Fructose Corn Syrup, which I'm convinced is manufactured in the bowels of hell to tempt anyone who wants to be a decent weight...but I digress). I don't sleep well. My computer is fubared. So I write, alot. Often. I have notebook after notebook of the stuff.